Play my Valentine

sorry dear..
valentine's day was somewhat toned down...

I just couldn't take my mind of something that happened to my friend...

Frankly, in my opinion, I've witnessed over the span of 24 hours, one of the most cruel way that a person can dump another person...

maybe he just wasn't thinking. that :

1) It would be Valentine's Day in less then 1 hour
2) It is right smack in the middle of her examination period
3) He used indirect communication - SMS
4) He didnt make any proper communication for so many days.

grr....

sigh.. but I havn't heard his side of the story yet... But I just dunno what to think...


anywayz...

MY COMPUTER IS CURRENTLY IN UNSTABLE CONDITION.
DONT CONTACT ME ON MSN.
CONTACT ME ON THE PHONE.


lol... he made for me a super sweet, super tasty chocolate brownie yesterday...
and he bought for me a book...

haha.. he knows that I love reading alot... and that I've never read Dan Brown's Digital Fortress before, so he bought for me that book.... after disappearing for 15 mins during dinner...

haha

yum... i've eaten all the brownies already... haha... i think i'm going to grow fat too..


sigh... sorry I was so moody yesterday... i think i was very childish not to think of your feelings.

I love you alot...
More then you can imagine..... x 100,000,000 times

*hugglez*

Happy Valentine's Day! 

Storm Clouds May Gather, Stars May Collide.... but.

I'll love you, until my dying day...

Today is valentine's day.

A day for love. A day to treasure....

Though dark clouds gather in my mind... the sun still shines above all these...


sigh... miss him so much....



XW mei... dont think so much le ok... Start a new day, a new chapter in your life, erasing memories that hurt and keeping those that are worth it close to your heart...

You've got to be stronger then ever before now...


sakenomo itsumane



i won't break this promise, not now, not ever...




v. day v. day v. day...
love is in the air!
I just can't wait till this darn MPP thing is over.... =)

Love.

Complicated... isn't it?
Love is a mystery... so difficult to comprehend, yet so simple in its very essence...

One moment it can be as beautiful as a rainbow after a storm, and yet be like darkness, ready to sweep you over the edge of nothingness...


I just realized that I cry so much more easily nowadays...
Nope, its not the amount of animes that I'm watching... but... I guess now is one of my more volatile mood swings...

For those that talked to me recently, you'd find that I'm so much more talketive and happy then usual, yet when I'm alone... I lose myself...


I wish I have more time to spend with him.... Schools, studies, commitments are tearing us further and further away from each other.... my open hands can only grasp so much...

He's worried that he might affect my results, as he knows that I place a large emphasis on my studies....
But there are times when I just look at my notes and tears just blurs everything.... Paranoia engulfs every inch of my body... the pessimistic drive in me takes over and forces me to the verge of depression again...

whats the use of studying when you can't absorb anything?....

I miss him..... alot...

arrgh... i hate these mood swings... it just has to come at all the wrong times...

hold me.... I feel so far away from you..... 

Day 6 : Still Equally Crazy Over Gravitation

Haha! Guess wad! I just made a stunning discovery today!

I realized why I looove the name Yuki so much!

Apart from the fact that Yuki is Shuichi's boyfriend, Yuki is also the name of Kyo's girlfriend!

Haha... I took the online persona as Kyo last time.. maybe its a undermasked instinct of mine to like Yuki!

=P

Gravitation Gravitation Gravitation!!!!

yeeaahh!! by far one of the best animes that I have watched

5 Stars 5 Stars!



LOL

hey peepz, for those that actually wanted me to help them to obtain people from Victoria Secondary to come to the event, really sorry though, I don't think I can help you all anymore... coz my bro has already asked the principle to provide 8 people already...

i doubt that i would be able to convince him to provide anymore already...

sigh...


on a lighter note,

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
(x 100)

three cheers for no school!

hmm.. I really need a break from this very boring semester... its terrible...


haiz...


anywayz, I woke up this morning to Ms Nga's message on my handphone, (like Cheryl and the others), and I scrutinized the message which read something like :

"Your request for ISP has been approved, Ms. Claire Ng will be your personal tutor for this project."

I stared at it blankly for awhile... and I great wave of disappointment swept me over.......
Though Ms. Claire Ng is a good teacher, I... kinda expected Ms Kwa to council me on this blogging project...

It is going to be hard for me to start building relationships all over with a lecturer whom I have never been taught under nor even communicate with....

help help help!

Cheryl gave a pretty good opinion on Ms. Claire, but..... I.. reserve my expectations...

I do not expect a lecturer to be nice to me, personally, I prefer a lecturer that is effective and efficient rather then a lecturer who gives views to tickle the ears of their students...

still... I feel rejected...
I guess Ms. Kwa doesnt think I'm good enough to be her student.....

or maybe because I disappointed her too deeply in the video club project....

baka baka baka!
watashi no baka!!

i've disappointed too many people...



my life leaves a trail of disappointments behind...



but nvm... I'll pick up my pieces and go on.... I understand that, one day, if God grants me success, it'll be a glorious one for Him, because I'm not just a failure, I'm a big BIG failure...

and if He picks me up, won't that be a sight to see =)


my. faith. will. not. be. shaken.



EoF is coming up next, and I just look blankly at my notes... I have hardly any clue whats going on... but I'll still study anywayz...

4 more days to valentine's day!

I can't wait I can't wait!!!
*hugzzzz*!!

Day 5 : Still Crazy About Gravitation

Bleah! 5 days runnning, and I'm still crazy over GRAVITATION and it ain't simmering!

haha... Few things has ever gotten me so hyper before...

If only Gravitation stuffs were sold in Singapore, I think my bed, wardrobe, bag.. everything will be full of Gravi stuffs!

I'm even starting to act Japanese...

Konnichiwa!

Lol.. I think this is hilarious...

anywayz, GOOD LUCK TO ALL YOU PEEPZ GETTING O LEVEL RESULTS!!!!
*SCREAMS*

hee... i know how stress you feel.. I couldn't sleep the whole night before I got my O level results too...

now.... *cracks knuckles*

I'm going to learn how to use CUBase, an advance creation and synthesizing software... wish me luck! My system is finally up and running to use it!


k.

you may be wondering why this post is so stress free.. thats coz CRM IS OVER!!! CRM IS OVER!!!
YAAY!!
and in the span of 6 more days, MPP, TREDP and EOF will be permernantly over!
Three cheers for the advent of holidays!

ow... shoot. my eyes hurt... *changes to working specs*


yup. CRM is so right. How do humans respond to a change?
the answer is : 1) Denial 2) Anger 3) Bargain 4) Resign

I see it applied throughout my life, now especially

1) Denial :
I can't believe that my results are slipping! NO!! This is not what I expected when I came to poly! I worked so hard! This must be a one time thing...

next semester, even worser results
2) Anger :
WHAT THE HELL? I WORKED SO HARD!!! $&#!_*#&_ HOW DARE THEY GIVE ME SUCH LOW MARKS!!! THIS IS HUMILIATING!! #$$&!*_$

after some thoughtful consideration
3) Bargaining :
Maybe I should work even more harder! For now, I shall go into depression and study like mad. I shall not interect, I shall not do anything that will "affect" my studies.

next semester, even worser results
4) Resignation : (current stage)
Ah well, life is all not fair. I can't blame myself for not trying hard enough. I did try my best, and to my best will I give it. God's will is the best will I could hope for.


haha... you see the chain of events?


5 more days to VALENTINE's DAY!!
I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait!!!
I know I'll definately get to meet him on that day at least!

haha... wonder what I should get....



lol.

Anywayz, I've made up my mind. Tomorrow I shall change to Shuichi style! YES! haha... I bet my class will make some comments. Hmm... haha....

but we'll see ya?

most people are already used to seeing me wear my double shirts =P


*hugz*
*love me for the reason... let the reason be love... *